hi J, glad you posted. I was reminded of another post here from a while back that contained some excellent suggestions to another type1 struggling with motivation.
https://forum.tudiabetes.org/topics/worst-diabetic-ever-needs-help
I especially like Kristin’s suggestions about not letting the numbers rule your self-esteem. she really helped me on this. I used to not test very often too, because if I saw a “bad” number, it would make me feel BAD. now I don’t think of bg numbers as bad, I think WOW, I’m glad I caught that now instead of later.
I’d also say, start with a small step first, don’t try to change everything today. say, start with testing before meals and bed and keeping a log.