Today is my 3rd anniversary. Although most things are automatic now (test, measure food, inject, eat, test again) I'm still having trouble thinking that I'm diabetic. I'm grateful I didn't have it when I was younger but maybe would be more compliant if I didn't know life as a nondiabetic. Right now I'm fighting a cold and getting ready to go to work in my overcrowded classroom. So it may be my anniversary but I don't feel like celebrating anything.
So sorry you are feeling sad, Kathyann. I have been diabetic longer (44 years)than not being diabetic(13 years), so my life experiences and life perspective IS going to be different than yours. You are a wonderful teacher and, as I remember, work with little ones in that overcrowded classroom. They do not see you as a "non-compoliant" diabetic. Do not think of yourself in those terms. You are a wonderful person before and after and inspite of the diabetes diagnois. Do I always have perfect a1c's under 7? Of course not. My last one was 8.2 . In the months after my father died, I kind of went by these diabetes burn-out attitudes: I am not passing out from lows and I do not need help treating them. I am not spilling ketones.I am not impeded in most of the things I want to do, so this is good enough, for now. Then I got back on the "regular" regimen" (intensive testing and correction bolussing, basal testing, very limited SWAGS) I find, not surprisingly, that I actually am feeling better psychologically since my diabetes control is better. Am I beating myself uo for non-compliance or regretting that I did not follow the "rules for being a GOOD diabetic"? Nope. Don't you do it either. Look at those little faces in your classroom. Ask the students in the class to get you a tissue when you feel a sneeze coming on, and they will all want to race and get you one.They love you anyway. Do Take care of yourself as you feel the signs of a cold . I personally us Zican nasal tubes at the first suymptoms of a cold, and they work for me in shotrnring both the length and severity of the cold, maybe even avoiding it altogether: They work for me)
You are "fearfully and wonderfully made our Creator. dibates and all, you are. No, you do not have to celebrate being a diabetic. I agree it it is not the same as nor as "easy" as your non-diabetic life. And I am sure you are grieving that past life: that is to be expected.. But you got up and kept on going, anyway. That is to be commended!! You get up and kept on going everyday!!Have a great day, dearie!!
Excuse my typos, hon.. I wanted to tell you, quickly and emphatically, to be encouraged, anyway. Hope it helped.
i hope your day gets better, we have chosen not to celebrate a diaversery for jacob but if you do maybe pat yourself on the back for a job well done and maybe celebrate with a treat covering those carbs of course, best wishes. you are more than your diabetes! amy