Thats how long it took me to realize what I have.
It started after reading a forum post from someone that had been on a pump for a week, and I realized what I had been doing. I had taken this goal to get on the pump and ran with it, I had fooled myself into thinking everything would be all right once I got on the pump. It gave me a goal to work for, something to focus my efforts on. So I focused on learning how to count carbs, how my body reacts to different foods. I changed the way I eat, I started exercising, I even quit smoking.
None of this changed the fact I have diabetes.
Oh man, I was very depressed at realizing this. I was able to talk to a friend I had met on line that has diabetes, and she made me feel a lot better. My life has changed since the day I was diagnosed and it has brought a lot of new people into my life and she was one of them. Let me just thank God for those people right now before I forget.
While I’m at I have a few more things to thank him for:
I thank God it wasn’t one of my kids.
I thank God I have new friends.
I thank God I am living better.
Some day I may even be able to thank God for having diabetes, but I can’t do that today.
I know this is kind of a depressing post but just so you know, I am feeling better today, it reflects how I felt yesterday.