I am so sorry for your loss. Your brother was so fortunate to have a little sister who admired him, adored him, looked to him for inspiration. I know that he must have admired, adored, and looked to you, his little sister, for inspiration even when you might not have thought it possible. The love you shared is apparent in your heartfelt words. One paradox in life is: when you love so much you feel so much joy, and you feel so lucky to feel it. Yet when you love so much and feel so much joy and that light from a soul departs, the pain and tremendous feeling of loss is just as devastating as the joy was elating to us. Why is life filled with such highs and such lows? I am glad you have the courage to share your joy and your pain with us here. A big hug to you.
