So I think I might be a vampire. I have absolutely no trouble going into a sleep induced coma during the day, but at night when it's socially acceptable to actually be sleeping? Forget that. My body does not want to sleep. It rebels.
This has been a problem for a few years now. Even if I sleep all night, at some point during the day I just become exhausted. I once slept for two days straight until my schedule was reversed so that I was up all night and asleep all day. I swear I don't do this on purpose. Sure it's great that I'm more alert when the sun sets, but it's such a pain when I have work and school. I was not my teacher's favorite student, for a variety of reasons, but constantly falling asleep like a narcoleptic probably didn't help matters. My friend laughs at me because, without fail, when the sun rises my body is like, "Time for bed!" Likewise, when it sets I suddenly become full of energy and raring to go.
Usually if I lay in the dark long enough, I'll eventually doze off. This has not been the case since I've been diagnosed. As usual, my diabetes feels the need to make things difficult. Now, instead of just not being able to sleep I get so unbelievably hungry at nights. I recognize this as one of the earliest symptoms from before I was diagnosed. I would get this maddening hunger that usually ended in me just stuffing my face, crying and considering myself a big fat failure at life. Now that I've lost the weight and understand that this hunger is a symptom, not my lack of self control, it's easier to stay strong and not give in to the urges.
This does not make me any less hungry.
My god I think I'm drooling right now. I just had a stray thought about macaroni and cheese and this excess saliva just built up in my mouth. Disgusting. I've already had two snacks, an apple after dinner and a few hours after I had some crackers with peanut butter. I've already mildly given in to the urges tonight, so why am I still starving? I know lowering my sugar will make this nonsense go away, and I also know that if I keep with these late night snacks it'll be like a snake biting its own tail. I'll wake up with a high fasting sugar, I probably won't be able to bring it down much and by the time night arrives I'll be right back where I started. Staring at my darkened ceiling and drooling over macaroni and cheese that I can't eat anyway because it has too many carbs.
I need some kind of miracle here. I'm working hard and eating right, yet every night I'm in this same sorry state. Come on Metformin. Work with me here. You've given me the gas already. Now let's see some results!