Hi, I just signed up for the site and I have been dying to spill this all out to someone who understands diabetes.
About me: I’m 27 year-old, 5’7 and 120lbs. I am in generally good health. I’m active. I eat no pork or red meat (mostly fruits, veggies, nuts, fish, and chicken). I enjoy (or used to enjoy) fancy desserts in moderation. I don’t drink alcohol, non-smoker. I have always had excellent numbers for cholesterol (150mg/dL), stable weight, normal bp, liver function, etc. I have no family history of diabetes.
A few weeks ago I went for a physical before I went for my SCUBA certification (exciting, right?). The doctor requested some routine blood-work and later e-mailed me to tell me that I was pre-diabetic (!) (103 mg/dL fasting) and that I should watch my intake of starches and increase my exercise.
I’m floored, confused, angry, and scared. Mostly, I am incredibly pissed that the doctor sent this to me in an e-mail with some vague advice. I feel like she’s implying that this is my fault and that I should figure it out on my own. My family is in complete denial that anything is wrong with me which makes me feel like I’m losing my mind even more. Maybe this is the point at which the post turns into a rant…I don’t know.
I have started getting really depressed. I bought a meter and usually test around 105 fasting but I have had a few in the mid 80’s or 90’s thrown in. I’m trying to figure out what causes it to be lower for me personally while I continue to research.
Also, I have an incredibly hard time pricking myself to take readings. I have never been afraid of needles before(11 ear piercings), but I think it has more to do with the fear of the number that will show up on the screen rather than the fear of the pain itself. I spent 15 minutes this morning trying to psych myself up for it. I don’t know why I can’t just get it over with.
I guess I’d appreciate anyone who has advice for me or maybe just a comforting word. I’m at this strange crossroads of half-denying to crazy over-reacting to accepting-but-being-mad-as-hell…