Wow Cathy - I am the same as you! I am happiest when the sun is shining - even if I’m stuck inside like I am now - working - I feel good.
Connie - like others have said here - don’t beat yourself up. I know for myself it’s easy to give out this advise, but do I follow it… hmm, not always. We PWD’s (people with diabetes) have alot to cope with, and sometimes it just gets to out of hands. Trying to have something that you know will make you feel better (for me - it’s picking up a good book … when I have time - sigh) - or whatever will get you out of the rutt. I personally have never taken meds, I was told to at one point during a rough time in my 30’s (separated, moved to a new town, yadda, yadda) - but I couldn’t bring myself to pop the pills, I was afraid. So, I just dug myself out, but that’s how I sorted myself out, as every is different with how they get thru’ their lows.
I do know tho’, that with places like this diabetic community and others (I belong to a few - they all have their pros/cons ) - that it helps me alot with dealing with stuff in my life. Just rattling off my thoughts like I do here, makes me feel better, and hopefully it will for you as well. Just know, you’re not alone!!!