Depresssion

Ive been really depressed for a while now. I feel irritated, useless,moody and i lash out at my boyfriend more these days. I have alot of anger and I need to find out where this stems from. I’ve totally lost myself and I hate what I’ve become. I’ve been diabetic for 19yrs now and don’t think that I’ve really come to terms with this new lifestyle-the sadness creeps in ever so often.If there is anyone out there that feels the way i do,I would really appreciate some kind of closure so I can start to understand how to handle this.More than anything, I would love to have kids some day-it just seems a bit difficult right now.