i go to my gp next week to pick up some test results, one of them is my a1c. i wasnt seeing her for anything diabetic, but she said wed do one anyway.
getting the bloods drawn made me think, inevitably, omg, this a1c is not going to be like the last(5s, mostly) ones (read:all of them, only t1 for 2 years). this i had known for a while, like since october. i knew i was slacking a bit and promised myself to do everything i was supposed to. it never really happened and here i am.
so after the blood draw, i started REALLY thinking about it. i made a list and am alarmed to see it there in writing:
Things im doing
physical activity-a good amount-2 hours cycling, walking, running
testing when i should
those are the good things. these are the other things im doing:
grazing all day because that is what everyone else in the staff room is doing, and because of cycling to work just after lunch, dont want to give bolus, then cycle thirty minutes to work. just one unit and i would need to eat about 75 or eighty carbs to be able to stay on the bike.
bolusing after the fact-again for the above or because im grazing and suddenly realize the amount of carbs ive eaten-mindfulness zero.
not counting carbs-just guessing. all the time.
underbolusing, as i have no idea of what my current i:c ratio is.
smoking now and again. ok, like every day, almost.
keeping zero records, missing trends, again, mindfulness zero.
snacking when i get home in the evening, not having a real meal.
now, i have known that i was being a bit "sloppy" with things, but rea had not truly realized how bad things were. or maybe i was consciously ignoring it. this is bad, looking at it, i know its bad.
people say, change things little by little, but its all so connected, the not knowing i:c ratio, the underbolusing, the grazing. where to start? what would you do first?
and im so not looking forward to the visit with my gp, who people call "la doctora house" cuz of how forward she can be. do i tell her all of this? because really, she cant do anything, i have to do it. i just dont want the doctor to make me feel like im in trouble at the principals office, which has never happened, luckily.
so what would you do first?