ive only been a t1d for three years(dx at 36) but have enjoyed sport since i was a kid. my favourite activities are running, cycling and hiking. im pretty open about my diabetes, my friends and coworkers know.
when i do races, i test at the starting line where its pretty crowded and i dont feel weird about it at all. i am completely anonymous in these situations, nobody even notices.
im going to start a racing technique workout programme in my local park. its just what ive been looking for. i know in the us and the uk they have these kinds of workout classes pretty much everywhere. when i found out there was one in the park by my house i was so excited. im starting on monday.
the classes are an hour and a half of running and strength training and race technique. as i said, im excited about starting, but i am also having some anxiety about revealing my diabetes/having some kind of (not serious) hypo where people i dont know are witness to it. i can just see myself stopping in the middle of the workout to look at my outstretched hand to see if its shaking, the trainer, who knows im diabetic from the forms i filled out asking if im ok, maybe freaking out a bit, the other participants thinking, whats wrong with this woman....maybe nothing will happen, but im nervous and i dont want to be THAT person that stops everything. it has taken me two months to get around to going in to sign up because of this! talk about ridiculous.
a coworker friend of mine cycles and invited me to go with him and his friends on a five day cycling trip. this is just up my street, so much fun and a bit of a challenge. and im afraid to go because i dont want to have a hypo on the road and slow these people down that i dont know, trying to make it to the next hotel/campsite, having to explain we need to stop, apologising for making them stop, making them wait.
i dont know why its such a big deal for me to do this. i hate to just introduce myself to people and in the same day have diabetes be such a prominent part of me that they see! its so difficult to keep it under wraps with exercise.