So i am 31yr old. Type diabetic 1 diabetic since 23yr old. my body is extremely fit and very muscular 10% body fat. height 6.1 and very very handsome (everyone tells me this i know is true) with green eyes. A bachelor and a master in engineering. Some good friends around the world. Here is my problem in my all life:: I train hard, lift weight, box, i check my blood sugar on regular basis. i run once in awhile. i have strict diet with low carbs and more healthy food. i take multivitamin and any other vitamins that are necessary. I am over this disease but but but but but here is the problem NOT matter how hard i try it brings me down everyday at work and the gym and any relationship and any social events with strangers or random people. It just takes over my body and mind and gives an extremely poor performance in my day to day things to do. So this is why i crush down i want to disappear... i try hard and hard and i still do poorly in my job, a job interview, a normal conversation, anything !! No i am not depressed for been diabetic i depressed because it lowers my performance by 60% or more every day. ..
So what is the point of all of this, if my body and mind can not perform at the level it should.... why why why the effort and why keep going this is how i feel and I am tired