Missy, I want you to listen VERY carefully here, if you can
My step father committed suicide when I was 13 years old. He had a lot of problems, etc. What I want you to know is the impact that had on our family, and how it tore it apart.
My mother went into a major depression/meltdown, my sister ended estranged, and we eventually had to move away from the city we were living in.
Why am I tellingyou this? Understand that your actions affect WAY MORE THAN JUST YOU. You may permanently end it for yourself, but you transfer that burden to your family, friends and aquaintences, if not just for the simple thought of “what could I do to help.”
I know that life sucks. I was once raped as a kid, but despite that, I made it. THINGS ALWAYS GET BETTER.
I know it seems hard, I know it seems impossible, but things ALWAYS GET BETTER. It may take a lot on your part, but you have gotten this far, and that speaks volumes of you. You CAN MAKE it, all you have to do is continue on.
YOU ARE NOT YOUR PAST, YOU ARE NOT YOUR DISEASE. It made you what you are today, but YOU ALWAYS HAVE A CHOICE to make your life better. What you are alluding to will PERMANENTLY solve your problem, but with NO TURNING BACK, and will turn those who love you’s worlds upside down.
I know that deep down you have love, hold on to that, and don’t let the other bits destroy you/.