Call your therapist. That’s his job. If he feels you’re relying too much on him, he’ll tell you. Don’t use that as an excuse not to have options or get help. Not sad to turn here for support, but we can’t guide you the way your therapist can.
Sweetie, having dangerously high BG is exhausting. Please, please take your insulin to get that high down. You can’t function like that & are dancing of the edge of DKA. Go to the ER.