Just updating. I went to the doctor today. She said that the odds are good that it was a full miscarriage but my numbers are not quite back to normal. She wants follow up bloodwork Thursday and depending on the results, an ultrasound to make sure it wasn’t a partial miscarriage or a tubal pregnancy. We discussed my risks for pregnancy in the future. I have done the research, and I know that it is possible. This proves it in a way. But we also did seriously discuss the risks, and possible outcomes. I don’t think I’m ready to make that decision right now, and she agreed. Full planning and discussion with a high risk doctor when I am ready to seriously think about it again. Thank you all for being here. The past few days has taught me a lot. I still ache and hurt inside, but I think I would worry more if I didn’t, so that’s ok. The more I talk about it all, the easier it gets. Some of it still hits home and makes me cry, I still have that sad smile and hurt eyes when I consider what would have happened if I’d have been able to keep it. But that’s ok I think. I fell apart, now it’s time to start picking up pieces. I have help and am loved.
