Hi sweetie…I’m so sorry that you have to endure all that garbage. Don’t “try” to fit in…just be yourself. I know that you feel a need to be accepted, we all do, but if the group you’re trying to mesh with is giving you the cold shoulder, or expecting you to partake in a way that makes you uncomfortable, or just simply refuse to accept YOU for whom you are, then they are the wrong people. Are you on medication for your depression? I think taking a year off to get to know your way is a good idea…however, you MUST commit to being involved…if possible, volunteer in an area that would open the door to meeting the right people. Is there someone you can talk it over with? As well, continue your connection with tudiabetes…here, we understand one another…there is support, and replies are non-judgmental. You are a very strong person to have dealt with diabetes for 16 years. It is said that children who have a serious chronic condition mature more quickly…this is apparent by your comments. Perhaps the reason you don’t fit in with most men your age, is because you are more mature…while they are still little boys with only one thing on the brain…having a “good time”.
Hang on to what you believe in Chisaki…YOU ARE A WINNER.
