I understand your frustration. I’m 38, and I was dx with t2 in march after being prediabetic for 4 years as well as having gestational diabetes with my last 3 of 4 pregnancies which got progressively worse that during my last pregnancy I was on insulin for the last trimester. I have five young children, my oldest is 9, my twins are 7 (first gd pregnancy), my 5 year old boy, and my baby boy who is 4. By the time I had my youngest, I was pushing 34 and my husband and I mutually agreed that we had our hands full with 5 kids under the age of 5. I gave my body a short rest, when I hit a bout of depression a few months after my last baby was born. I went to see my dr and she tells me not only do I have depression, but my bp is high and she wants to do bloodwork and monitor my bp. After all the monitoring, I’m now taking an antidepressant and hbp meds on top of being prediabetic.
Oh wait it gets better, we move from Az to Va, away from any family or support networks. Bout #2 with depression, and did I mention I homeschool? Yes I am currently homeschooling 4 out of the 5 kids, while juggling a household, being active in my church,and dealing with d, hbp, & depression.
The first time I heard that God wouldn’t give me more than I can handle, I laughed and responded, “Lord, I wish you didn’t think so highly of me.” That was back when I found out I was having twins and my ob gyn had just announced I would have 3 kids under 3. It is a daily struggle just keeping up with myself, let alone 6 other people (yes, the hubby gets some time too). But I know that my God has seen me through some of the most difficult times of my life and He has never left me standing by myself. He has given me the strength to end each day, the good and the bad ones, and the privilege to start each day anew. So when you feel the weight of the world on your shoulders, don’t be afraid to say, “Lord, I wish you didn’t think so highly of me,” and take the rest of the day caring for yourself. God loves you and, even though we want to fight it, He will give you the strength to make it through each day.