My grandmother calls me every day and cries into the phone “Why you? Why not me? I wish I could have this illness instead of you”.
My mother tells me how she is not enjoying anything anymore and keeps thinking about my health. She bought me a 10 days stay at a fancy diabetes clinic in Germany which was really expensive… She is booking an expensive summer holiday trip for me and my boyfriend just to make me happy.
And these two people are everything that I have as a family. And it seems to me that I am causing this pain. I know that it is not my fault that I have diabetes. But for some reason I feel like I deserve it and that it is meant to be which is fine for me as long as I am not disappointing others.
I can have great days and feel strong, but these moments destroy everything and I just feel guilty.
trust me you can live lonnng happy days with this disease, you should assure your mom and grandmother that too. You have a disease that you can control, and a disease that pushes you to live a healthier lifestyle, how great is that! I know this disease can be a pain in the ■■■ at times, but I have always said to myself… out of all the diseases in this world, I think being diagnosed with diabetes has made me fortunate, made me appreciate life more and what it has to offer. I know i’m way healthier than some people i know, we can out live many people by taking care of ourselves to best… you need to reassure them that and live for today and the moment… diabetes will be there sure, but its not who we are, just another bump in the road.
Have you tried seeking group therapy with all three of you? maybe take them both to a CDE?
@Jill
Thanks for your advice! It gives me a good start of the day ^^
Next time, I´ll tell them 
@Sarah
Would be a bit difficult as all three of us live at different places far away from each other…
