why am I at 97 and not 497? I didn’t mean to end up in the New to Diabetes section, because I’m not.
The way I feel today, I can honestly say that I don’t ever want to be feeling this way again. Between the neuropathy, restless leg, spondylolisthesis, fibromyalgia, and depression, I haven’t felt worse in months and months. I had to use a walker today instead of my scooter with the dead batteries.
Sometimes it gets so bad you wish for a big bus or a train to run over me and get it over with.
Anyone out there with a fleeting feeling like that?
It’s me here, girl. I am not new to the big D but it still doesn’t exempt me from wanting to give up. I actually wouldn’t want to throw myself in front of a moving bus or train, but I wouldn’t mind if one would, say, jump the tracks and mow me down!!
No, I’m not suicidal, just depressed. Just like I was feeling sorry for myself because nobody answered my blog (or whatever you calll it) for over an hour! Pity Party!!!
What I could afford to give myself as a treat has already been done. I got to replace my printer ink and bought some business card stock to make my own cards. I’m a Board member (no, not bored) of the Transit Plus Advisory Council for Milwaukee County. We sit on a board of community users of paratransit and oversee the process so that people in the industry cannot abuse their contracts and provide proper paratransit service. That’s my treat because I had to make 2 months rent this time. You know, if I could control a run-away checking account, I would really have about $600 a month to spend on other bills and on me. This month, alone, all I have for food is $120. That’s fini!
So, just give me a swift kick in the arse and tell me to get going … after having a better night’s sleep tonight. I’ve gotta learn how to get off this site at a reasonable hour. Like 9 or 10.
Lois, you have to make your health your main concern.Make a promise to yourself that you will get proper sleep and let “D” win.This condition we have(I don’t call it a disease) requires alot of commitment on our part.I went through a phase when I was first diagnosed,“I’m gonna eat whatever I want” phase,then I got married and started to be a bit more careful.Then I wanted to start a family and that was the turning point.I have never looked back.Since being on the pump your life is so much more simplified.Take care.
Thank you for your input. I know I need to take better care of myself but it seems that there’s sooooooo much to do to do that with all the other health problems. I get depressed sometimes. You know, I’ve been told that the Lord doesn’t give us any more than we can handle. Well, I think they lied to me or that the Lord must think I am real beast of burden!!
