Tomorrow is a New day, to take it and run with it, have some relaxing time, have some time to ponder and write what your plan is and goal is good too. And forget all the past of not taking care of you:) you will mend better if you let that go:) So no more beating your self up, and face the future with a Big Happy smile that you were Lucky enough to be given this time to do just that:)
Take steps to enjoy things that you haven’t:) kinda the line" stop and smell the roses" 
I am guessing you have Type 2 diabetes, am I correct?
I hope you have a good rest of the week, and let us know how your doing:) Debbie