You know, dealing with Type 1 diabetes sucks to a major extreme. However, at times, I am quite thankful it is just diabetes. There are worse things and I am the leader of a support group of one of them, but I digress…
So, my rant today is about increasing basal/bolus rates and gaining weight. For the first time since my diagnosis I am at the weight I want to be at. I am a Registered Dietitian. The professional part of me knows that the weight I am about to gain is due to insulin and that I can’t do anything about it. The human being part of me wants to sit down and cry.
I got my HgbA1C back and it is at 7. Not a bad number compared to old ones but it is the highest it has been in about a year. So, I stare at my insulin pump and know what I have to do. What I don’t want to do, however, is increase my dosages. I gain about 1 pound every time I have to increase my insulin dosages. I. want. to. cry. So long to my happy weight…welcome more love handles and bigger rump…and welcome to lower HgbA1C values and less complications later in life…so why do I have to feel so fat and unattractive?