Hi there. I’m new here, and I just wanted to introduce myself.
About 6 months ago, I was diagnosed with PCOS and Diabetes (type 2). My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for a year, and after this diagnosis I was told that I couldn’t proceed with fertility treatment until I brought my A1C down. It was 8.6 at first diagnosis. I immediately sought the advice of a nutritionist, and in August I was able to bring it down to 6.4.
I’m having a LOT of feelings about this all:
- I went kind of extreme in my diet. It’s VERY low carb - I don’t eat any refined sugar or any grain. This week I tested quinoa and 2 hours after my meal my bg was still at 140. It’s been really tough, and it makes me feel like - well, the only thing keeping me in check is this crazy diet plan. That metformin and glipizide aren’t enough if I want to eat like a normal human being. I’m not talking about cake, I’m talking about freaking quinoa. I feel totally food obsessed, and it sucks.
- I feel so much shame. I’ve been fat for basically my entire life, and I spent YEARS trying to love my body. I take care of it, which many people assume otherwise (because obvious fat = lazy). But I’ve run 3 half marathons. I do yoga and zumba and weight lifting already. I’ve always cared about eating healthful, nutritious foods. Only now I do all of that to the extreme. And somehow, I still feel ashamed that this has happened. So much of the public discourse around obesity says “you better drop some pounds, or you’ll get diabetes.” And, well, now I have diabetes. I don’t think it’s my fault, exactly, because PCOS is also insulin resistant, so clearly there is an underlying issues there. I am just really struggling to love myself these days.
- I’m allowed to proceed with fertility treatment - yay! But my endo informed me that I will definitely have to start insulin during pregnancy, since most pregnant women increase insulin production by up to 100 times during pregnancy. I feel totally defeated by this, and really terrified. I know that after a pregnancy, there are other medications I could try (that are contraindicated for pregnancy), so it’s not a forever thing. This seems so freaking scary to me.
Anyways, I just spilled my guts. I’m not sure what I’m looking for, exactly - just, maybe, some people to talk to.