I’ve never been a blogger but I’m gonna spill myself out a little. I’ve had diabetes for about 4 months now and it’s greatly affected my life. I honestly feel lost some days despite my decent control. All the complications scare me a bit in the long term but what I can’t stand the most is the diet, constant carb counting, and weight gain!! I hate how I’ve gained more weight than I wanted to and my appetite never seems to go away. I feel like some of my dreams are out of reach since having this disease. I use to love modeling but since gaining 20 pounds I’m not exactly fond of the idea of getting in front of the camera. I wanted to study abroad for a semester but before I do that I need a pump but insurance won’t cover it yet. I guess I’m just frustrated right now.