Welcome 
I found high school and college was the most difficult time period to take care of myself… Having a routine now that I’m working full time has helped… and being independent but the motivation to do everything all the time is never there (There’s just too much to do to be the “perfect diabetic or person w/ diabetes” and not enough time…at least not if I want to actually live life and enjoy it!
I’ve never found fear of what will happen to be very motivating…or even long term “i want to be in good health/no complications at age 70” does little for day to day motivation-If this was enough to motivate a person… then nobody would be smoking or overeating or any other bad habits that lead to complications later in life…
Keep checking in here and talking…because knowing there are so many other people doing the same thing helps to keep me on track …
Setting small goals also makes it more manageable…like I just need to test as soon as I wake up… and not worry about what the number is (in the sense of whether it’s “bad” or “good”).
Maybe find someone to be accountable to here (check in w/ each other to see if you tested etc. whatever you work out between each other ~ like exercise buddies ;))
And it’s okay to be demotivated because diabetes is overwhelming and can be time consuming and it was never something you asked for…so it’s understandable that at times you’ll be demotivated.