After many decades on antidepressants (aka Happy Pills) I decided about 6 months ago to try to face the world without them. The first 3 months were not so good. My head would spin, my mind would not shut off, I had difficulty sleeping and some of my friends appeared very annoyed with me and my behavior. But, stubborn as I am, I wanted to feel the whole continuum of emotions. The bad along with the good.
Now my mind is beginning to quiet and I am able to sleep most nights. I feel anger, frustration, despair and sadness along with joy, happiness, contentment and love. Sounds like a full plate to me. My local doc thinks I am nuts to try this and is worried that I will crash and burn (will not be the 1st time). My Mayo Clinic endo is thrilled with me and is impressed with my brave decision. I do not know if both or either of these docs is on the right track, but it is something I feel I need to do.
Not so long ago, I was on so much medication that while traveling from home it was necessary to carry an entire case for all meds and supplies. Now after many years of trying to be healthy has brought me to 3 medications. Insulin via pump, Nexium & generic Prinivil to protect my kidneys, and all of the assorted supplies. I am amazed that I have been able to do this with the help of family and medical professionals invested in living well with T-1 and/or a cure.
I am ready to face whatever lies ahead with laughter, tears or both. I do feel a little like Alice in Wonderland going through the looking glass, turning around to look at self and then turn again to walk toward a new and different life experience.
Keep on being who you are to find the right path....