I fall asleep each night in pain, I wake up in pain every morning. Is this any way to live? The pain is the kind that has no name. I t can not be described in a word or even in a feeling or even in an emotion. It's just pain, pain in my feet. I want the pain to go away. I want it to leave this world from the tips of my toes into eternity and to never ever come back. Not after me, nor anyone, not even my ememies. Pain is no ones friend but it is everyone's enemy. For some reason I have welcomed pain into my life for some time now. I'm ready for it to leave now. At least I say I am ready, but am I really? It's been here so long, we seem to have made friends. I don't want to be friends anymore. But how do I make you leave? They have told me what to do...eat right, medicine, exercise, yeah...yeah...yeah. I've been to those classes, I've heard the spill. Why don't I do what they say? I really don't like you. I really want you to leave. What's it going to take? Me. Me. ME. MMMEEEE!!!! It's going to take me. I am going to have to be the one to make the pain go away. I know how. I listened to you explain it to me. I heard you tell me what to do and how to do it. It seems like the pain has just become a part of my life. I've learned how to cope, while my family just goes on without me. I want to be the one in control of my family, not you. It's time for me to do something. It's time now.
**Thank you for reading what's going through my head. I just needed to get this out and know that someone would listen. God Bless You.