There is no way to undo the past or the apprehensions you have but you can move forward. Remember this, as sad an event as it was, tragic even, there are millions more people using the pump with few problems. It’s technology, designed by mere mortals and so there will be problems. However, you will have the control. Remember that and keep saying to yourself, “I am in control”.
My daughter has a pump and was reluctant at first. She was 16 when we decided it was the right step to take in getting her blood sugars leveled out. After the first morning she could sleep in she was sold on it and has never looked back.
The downside is that first month is very much like the first month after being diagnosed…a huge learning curve but this time around you know what insulin does, you know what carbs are and you know what high blood sugars/low blood sugars feel like. There are more things here that you know than you don’t know…if that makes sense. It’s like diving into a new swimming pool…you already know how to swim: it’s the same water, just a different diving board & maybe a new swimsuit.
It sounds like you have a great support network on the sidelines to cheer you on. Good luck, Marsha, keep me posted…
moe
“Fairy Tales are more than true; not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.” G.K. Chesterton