Start new

lots of changes in life… some people either learn to live with it… or just avoid everything and dont worry. people should worry at times. but never over worry. i look at myself like a person that person who doesnt care of high sugar numbers… i really never gave a damn about it… ever since i got diagnosed i been so angry about it. i first started out by being so paranoid about people knowing. then i just avoided everything that had to do with diabetes like if i needed to test at school i would skip it so i can seem “normal” and at the end i would end up with blood sugars of 200 and up.

other times if people notice my insulin pumps or something i would be embarrassed to tell them what it was… i was not comfortable in my own self. i was ashamed. then other times i would hate testing myself.all the way through out this year and a half i would not get over with being different… i had different incidents were i was with my boy friend watching movies and i had really bad low blood sugars… but i still would be to lazy and stupid that i would ignore it and risk my life when i did stupid stuff like not giving myself shots when i was suppose to… i wouldn’t never take care of myself… A1C of 9.9 or so. i was horrible. but not i decided to change… i want to start new. change everything.make my life easy with some effort. learn to accept myself of who i am. and learn that different is beautiful

Good for you Shelby!

You are not “different”…you are beautiful just the way you are, just happen to be a diabetic. Didnt you know that diabetic women are some of the strongest, smartest, and most beautiful women around? Ha, just take a look at all of them on this site.
I know you will start fresh and succeed. Stay positive, and remember you are worth it.