I’m 4 weeks into austerity and my goal is to keep doing practice sugars for one more menstrual cycle before I go off of birth control and start trying.
Can I just say…this makes me feel like a crazy person. Right? Isn’t pretending you’re pregnant when you’re not pregnant what crazy people do? And I get a piece of data from my Dexcom every 5 minutes that tells me whether I should have a baby, so I may also be going crazy. People are starting to ask if I’m pregnant because I just got married and I’m eating like a bunny and laying off caffeine and alcohol. What do I say? No, I’m just pretending I’m pregnant, like an insane person, because my doctor told me to? No, but diabetes really sucks and I have to eat like I’m pregnant way before I’m actually pregnant but don’t get excited because I’m not going to tell you until I’m like 20 weeks because I’m scared?
Plus side I feel good and I’ve recalibrated what feels unreasonably high. I’ve gotten more physically accustomed to cruising along around 100. Which is good for me. Why couldn’t I be this motivated without wanting a baby anyway?