So it’s an interesting thing - me joining an online community dedicated to diabetes. I’m not really a public diabetic. Sure, I treat my diabetes in public - I’ll take a hit of insulin on the street, in the restaurant, or anywhere else I generally please. Speaking of, special thanks to the security guard in front of the Georgetown Salvation Army headquarters who just looked at me funny when I whipped out my Levemir and DIDN’T listen to that gut feeling that said to call the cops cause the crazy junkie girl with a yoga mat was shooting up and couldn’t they come and shoo her away.
Anyway, digressions aside, I publically treat diabetes, I am not a public diabetic. Twenty-something, funny girl, old soul, and wicked optimist - those are my nouns, not diabetic. Coming up on my year anniversary de diagnosis, I don’t really let people know how much I think about my diabetes. Sure, I have to count what I eat, time when I exercise, and prick my finger several times a day, but if I THINK about it, well that changes the whole ballgame. It becomes a preoccupation, and whether I like it or not, there’s a certain diabetes tint that a very significant portion of my life has taken on.
I think I’ve hidden my new D-shaped glasses from the rest of the world because, for the most part, my world is filled with people who knew me pre-diagnosis, and I want to be very sure that they don’t see me as Diabetic Lizzie. I don’t want to be Pitiable Lizzie or Fragile Lizzie or Lizzie*, unless that * is followed by “mega millions lottery winner and respected international leader.” So I haven’t really blogged about my diabetes (on my other blog, the hilarious and incredibly humble http://lizziemusar.blogspot.com), I don’t talk about it to anyone, and while I’m very happy to answer questions that people may ask, I don’t generally bring up the subject first.
I have diabetes, but, one year into this bloody roller coaster, I don’t call myself a diabetic. The distinction may be slight, but it’s an important one for me right now. Maybe TuDiabetes will help me take on the proper noun-ness of it all.
So thanks to those of you who have friended me - it’s been a great welcome and I look forward to sticking around.