Trying to take charge of my life again

Hello and thanks for posting. I have been T2 for 5 years I think. This isn't new to me at all. I just all of a sudden have got it in my head that it is better to be high than low and do just that. Eat or drink something to bring me high even if my BG is 116. I just need to get in control here before I cause any more damage than I already have. Frustrated with the whole thing.