I didn’t watch the show (don’t have a tv nor really into watching tv that much anyway) but I really related to that latter half of your post about mistakes made in youth… I also went through a rebellious phase ~knowing at the time that I could/would pay for it later but not caring at the time ~ so now I worry about potential complications…but also the potential guilt… because I made previous bad decisions…but then do we have to take full responsibility when D was imposed on us in the first place? Thanks for sharing your thoughts because at least I know I’m not the only one who worries/thinks about these things 
