Yes, it’s normal to be afraid of the pumps when you’re just starting out. I was diagnosed at 4 and absolutely refused to go on a pump until I was 16. I did NOT want a box hooked up to me at all. With the regular pump, I was scared that it was above what I could handle. I was comfortable with shots - I knew what to do and when to do it and had everything down to a science. But the pump was different - I was also scared because it would be attached to me. Would I look different to others? Where would I wear it? What would happen if I dropped it? Would it come out at night while sleeping? It’s all about the comfort zone. You’re comfortable with shots. It’s just one of those things that you have to try it to see if you like it. There is no one out there that can give you examples or share their own life story that will let that green light go off for you. You have to just go for it. I did and have been pumping for a little over 8 years now. Most companies have a return policy that if you don’t like it, you can return it. But since you’ve gone so long without even being hooked up, I’m not sure that they’ll let you. What have you got to lose? Just try it, if you don’t like it, put it up for when you’re honestly ready.
