I saw it someplace, I’m not sure where, but the quote was attributed to Mother Tersea, something along the lines of " I know the Lord will not give me more than I can handle, I just wish he did not have such trust in me". I like that one. I also like the one that says I can handle it. I may not handle tactfully, or with poise or grace, it may be ugly with a lot of yelling, but it WILL get handled.
That’s my own belief system. I can still remember when my second child was diagnosed, I handled it till I came home with her from the hospital, and proceeded to vomit violently as it truly hit me, not just me, her big sister and my Mom, but BOTH of my girls were D’xed at < 12 months old. I freaked for a while, cried, screamed, shook, then got up and dusted myself off, and took care of business. I mean we all HAVE a choice, but for me, there IS no choice except to keep fighting as good a fight as I can muster up that particular day.
I hope you are able to find the strength to keep trying. . .