Christmas is around the corner… all I can hear now are Christmas carols… when I was younger every time I hear the word Christmas I feel excited! Christmas for me before was Christmas presents, vacation, reunion and parties… Why I can’t feel excited now? Being a Christian, Christmas for me is the celebration of the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ… well, Christmas gifts, reunions and parties are still experienced but before I was the receiver now I am suppose to be the giver… How can I give when I don’t have money to spend? Still jobless… frustrations are what I’m having this 2007… What does 2008 brings?
Can’t help but cry… feel so helpless and worthless, I can see my husband having a hard time making both ends meet, and I want to help him… but how??? While typing this blog, I’m looking at my husband fast asleep, still you can see the hard life on his face… I got 2 interviews this week, and I got the replies today, the first one replied (I applied as customer service representative): Sorry to inform you that I cannot accept you due to your diabetes, you see, a CSR will have to work on a graveyard shift, and what I know is that someone who has chronic illness such as diabetes are not suppose to stay up late or have to work overnight because it disrupts their circadian rhythm, that would make one more sickly….
The second one (I applied as Branch Supervisor), Sorry to inform you that I cannot accept you this time; I have reservations of endorsing you because I need someone coming from the food industry….
This is soooo disappointing… I am losing my self confidence…