non diabetes: transport trucks, getting in cars with random people, loss of a loved one, on come of another disease, getting sick, food poisoning. Pregnancy… I seriously have a fear of getting pregnant, horrible i know, but it freaks me out. I see too many girls my age getting pregnant when they’re not ready and ruining their lives.
Diabetes: Dka has to be the one thing i’m quite afraid of. I’ve never gotten it before and hope never to experience haha. if my blood sugar ever spikes above 190 I freak out. That and going low in my sleep and never waking up.
judith, what you said about being a dancer and being afraid of damage to your feet… i am a visual artist and a historian (lots of reading) i fear loosing my eyes…
High blood sugars. I’m absolutely terrified of them, and I have panic attacks when I hit 145. I’ve had to go to the hospital a few times, and they wouldn’t let me give myself as much insulin as I wanted. I spent hours sobbing and terrified that I was going to be really high (above 220) later. I know it’s completely irrational, but taht doesn’t make it go away.
I never knew her brother and the bride was a third cousin of my wife’s so we weren’t that close. It seems that it was SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome). They put her down for a nap and she never woke up.
This kind of thing makes me realize that fate can be much more cruel than inflicting diabetes on us.
Dka is pretty frickin scary, Jill. I’ve been there a few times. Can’t move- muscles ACHE ACHE ACHE…blood actually HURTS going through the body… I’ve also been in insulin comas while sleeping. I’ve done that so many times that the ambulance drivers (EMTs) said “Oh, I know that house” when my fiance called them to help me. That was when I was using Lantus. I have since come off of Lantus (using Levemir) and haven’t experienced that again. Thank goodness. I used to cry myself to sleep because I was so scared of dying while sleeping.
I have always loved watching dancers- especially ballet. I don’t really know why- I think it’s the utmost control that they can express with their bodies and muscles. I wanted to take dance lessons when I was a kid, but my family couldn’t afford it… now I’m too scared to start at 25. haha.
I agree Scott. My fiance suffers from serious bouts of migraines so intense that he can’t open his eyes, can’t see straight and can’t function. The pain and lack of oxygen causes his short term memory loss. He loses his keys all the frickin time. Sometimes he’ll put something down and five SECONDS later, ask me where it is.
if had to pick a fear it would be that i would conceive a child. I in no way want to be a mother, not even a little bit and especially not on accident. I know me and I know i wouldn’t be happy. Therefore since i feel this way i will do anything in my power to not have children. I don’t want to over come this fear, because i have no desire to have family. I just like being on my own and dealing with my own problems. I know it’s a strange thing, but i know i won’t ever change my mind and i know that for SURE because i feel very passionately about this.
thanks it’s kinda hard to explain. And i can’t say i had the picture perfect family while growing up. I just know i just want to take care of me, and that it a really huge challenge sometimes.
new fear! Having a job where my diabetes won’t be accepted or respected. Also having a job where i’m so busy i decide that working is more important then checking or eating. It’s really easy to do that when your busy, which is why i want a job where i can take a break without interrupting my work to much.
As for a being diabetic: i really fear that i’ll be one of those people who say “i’ve been a bad diabetic for TONS x amount of years.” I don’t want to be that person, because i know that it CAN be done it just takes hard work and self motivation.