I am a diabetic who at times did very well controlling my disease. I have also lived through periods of downright denial’ eating and not exercising as I should. Currently I am trying very hard to improve my lifestyle including vigorous exercise and diet, but my numbers respond much more slowly in the desired direction after improved schedule of testing and control (exercise and diet). I want to share my struggles and better understand others with the same or similar feelings. Since my original diagnosis I have felt there is very little accountability wherein the medical community does so little to acknowledge the emotional component of having this disease.It is my desire to share my experiences and also lend support to others how feel a need to vent.