I’m conserving test strips - sort of. I was trying, but somehow I just needed to
test a few things and I only have one left in my allotment for the month. It’s
almost addictive, really. The more I test, the more I want to test. It’s so hard to NOT test, to keep on my test strip budget.
If I test, I know (sort of) what’s going on with my body. I may not always know WHY things are going the way they
are, but at least I know if i’m on target at the moment.
Diabetes makes me feel out of control a lot. Or perhaps thats not quite right - diabetes makes me feel like I’m
constantly STRIVING for control. Eat this, not that, try this, not that.
if I don’t test, how do I know its working? That feedback, that little number
on the meter - that’s what tells me, okay, i’m doing well, or no, never ever
ever eat a whole small new york fries again. Even if I don’t like the message,
I’m very comforted to have it.
The finger pricks don’t bother me. Not with the new, itty bitty blood drop meter. On the
old meter, yes, it sucked. But now, I’d pretty much test a dozen, two dozen
times a day if it were 10cents a test. I’d rather KNOW than hope I’m where I
need to be.
The first company that comes out with a really cheap, accurate blood test or constant monitoring system
will have hit the jackpot, really. Knowledge is power here, and it really,
really, really bugs me that it isn’t affordable.
Dipping into savings this week to buy more strips - two weeks of not testing is just unthinkable.