To anyone,
I need some help.
I will have had type 1 for 10 years on December 6th. Being a teenager doesn't help with anything. Especially with diabetes. Lately I've been so resistant to doing anything, including checking my sugars or bolusing. I don't wanna be like this. It makes me feel so sick all the time. But I just refuse to do anything about it. I always say tomorrow will be the day I start doing better but tomorrow never comes. I can't keep doing it anymore. I've been giving up on myself for too long now. I wanna be better.. I just can't find a way to make it possible.. I need someone's help. Someone who understands... Someone. Anyone. Who's been through this. Please help me.. I'm begging. I can't keep this up or I'm going to die young. I don't want that to happen. I just wanna feel okay again.. So please.
Help me.
I hope you know you are not alone. No matter what, you have people here who are your friends and understand. You can make a difference. You must believe in yourself. All you have to do is be willing to let us help. All you have to do is just talk with us.
You are too young to feel like this, please try to get yourself back on track, just one little task at a time, start with testing and then when you feel comfortable again with that on to another task. We are all here for advice, but you have to do the rest yourself. Hugs, Maureen
Ditto on what Brian says you are not alone, This site is full of caring people a lot of which have gone thru what you are going thru.
Gary
I think a lot of us have gone through similar experiences. At one point I was so down I just laid in bed waiting for that big heart attack that the doctor kept warning me about. I did this for about 3 months but something just clicked in my head. I got tired of feeling like that all the time so I started again with small steps. I started working on the things that I loved to do before diagnosis. I started biking. At myjob I started to work at getting over the hurdle of feeling bad all the time so that I could do better. If you read my profile you can see my story and my way back from a bad situation. All i can say start with small steps. Small steps can help better than tryng major changes. take care and I am sure you will find your way.
I'm so glad you posted - it takes a lot of strength to ask for help.
I agree with what's been said... small steps at a time, don't try to do it all. Start with one thing, like testing when you wake up. When you're ready, add something else. Baby steps are the way to go ;) Being a teenager is tough stuff!
You obviously care about yourself. You can do this! We're all here for you.
It took you lots of courage and strength simply to accept and ask for help. That in itself is a step forward and an accomplishment. Some have failed in that aspect and are still in denial. You have so much to offer...a bright wonderful life ahead of you...even with diabetes. You are not alone. We are here for you.
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I recently went throigh this phase I’m 13 and life was a struggle I just wished I could crawl under a rock and never out. So I too started not blousing not testing and eventually I was really sick, but then I realised my struggle was my pump… Its like when your a teenager with a pump dioabetes never leaves you so I stopped using my pump and started using pen injections again and since then I’ve even found testing easier because when you inject you just automatically think well if I do my insulin and my BG now then I can leave diabetes behing until I get home from school and be a normal teenager! This is only my story but I hope it helps… Would you ever consider using pen injections instead of a pump??
Sara good for you. So glad you figured out what works for you :)
I've also been through this. I unfortunately visited the intensive care unit a little too often. As a result I do feel a lot weaker physically than others my age, but hey I'm still here and fighting. A different stages in my life I got so fed up of D I pretended I didn't have it. It doesn't go away though and we need to constantly motivate ourselves just to stay alive. Like most people have said try to take it in small steps. I broke my day up, 8am till noon, noon till 4pm, 4pm till 8pm and so on. Try to get the bgs on target for at least one of these. When you manage that it will give you strenght, then go on to the next part of the day. I see people who take care of themselves and I often wondered why I'm not like that. I guess we're all different. Please keep trying. This site is the best thing I have come across. No one understands better than others who are going through the same thing.
I got up one morning, realizing that I couldn’t stay on path, too many problems; medical that were fast approaching and I knew it, and really got tired of visiting infectious disease clinics for bottles of anti obits, ER’s in the wee hours of the morning or the ongoing life issues due to my lifestyle, etc.
Best advice, pick your battles, one thing at a time, it’s gets easier! We all have our bad days and good ones!
Trust me humour works! I had a nurse begging me not to pass out at the triage desk - kidney stones, turning brilliant colours, green, gray, and red as I was weaving back and forth as waves of pain rolled through me as I bit my lip trying not to laugh, physce ward lock up door was right behind me. I figured if I started to laugh, I wouldn’t stop… This poor nurse getting frantic, yelling on the phone, “I don’t care, throw someone out of the ER NOW! I need that bed now!” As she dragged, led me as I bounced off the walls in the ER with her!
Think humour! 
one thing at a time! So smile! Psst… If that don’t bring a smile to you, try waking up with a black bear snoring in your tent - it was raining out!
Hang in there, girl! You're stronger than you think. I've been going through this same thing lately; I even went into DKA because I was so stubborn about it. It's like you know exactly what's going to happen to you and that you're supposed to be under control and whatnot, but there's no drive or motivation at all. I don't really have much advice on how to get back on track other than just ease back into the routine slowly. You'll get burnt out if you rush for perfection.
I CAN tell you though that you're not alone! I think almost every teenager with diabetes has already or is currently going through this. Like I said, hang in there! Everyone keeps saying it'll get better, and we just gotta believe 'em!
You got this! :)