I talk but nobody hears me,the anguish, pain and constant worries are just shrugged off. So I paint on a smile whilst laughing the loudest to hide my grief.
I am here but nobody can see me. The blood drops are too much to get their heads around,being a pin cushion has become the norm. I tend to hide it because they don’t know how to react around it.
The results keep coming but they either patronise me about it or criticise me. Everyone blames me no matter how hard I try to fight it.
It’s a lonely disease in so many ways but it’s even harder when people choose to ignore its there, because I have to deal with it without a choice.
I am type 1 diabetic and I am fighting this disease the best way I know.
It can be incredibly lonely, I agree. In some ways, our disease is easiest when we are alone. I sometimes dream of a community all made up of diabetics, imagine that! Where everything has an obvious carb count on it, and there would be designated injection areas, cozy and attractive with diabetes art on the walls and sharps containers conveniently available. But I digress… Just remember: you absolutely aren’t the only one even though in your immediate environment it can seem that way. I sometimes visualize, when I have a negative diabetes moment, that right this very moment there are other diabetics out there feeling the exact same way as I do. Then I feel better. As for others blaming you – don’t let them! Ignore their ignorance. Imagine how hard it would be for those who patronise you to one day become diabetic themselves… that’s what comes to my mind in those situations where I am being mistreated. Diabetes does require an unwavering strength and self-motivation, traits which people will admire you for as they spill over into your whole person. Don’t let others’ ignorance harm your resolve to doing the best you can. Hugs. nini6
Osob…I am so happy to re-connect…All bright blessings to you!..Isn’t Ramadan coming up in a week or so? I am so sorry you are feeling so lonely, but you know I understand…
Please–you know in your heart there is no blame to you…If I can figure out the tech, I am going to PM you my phone number and private email. If you need to Just Talk, I am here…Blessings sweetie…Judith in Portland…
Thank you NINi, a diabetic community would be so much fun, understanding and sisterhood. I also think that someone else somewhere could be feeling exactly like I am so if I get it down and they read it they might feel some sort of comfort. I am not much of a talker so I either write or have a good cry in bed to get myself back up and together.
Thank you for taking the time to comment I appreciate it. Xxx
Hi Judith,
Yes Ramadan is coming up, it’s such a peaceful month. I don’t fast and have never done so just do my best other ways. I love the way the community comes together, families cook together and eat together as well as making loads of prayers at night.
Lol thank you ever so much I think you are wonderful, I have messaged you. Xxx
