Is it a sin to be poor?

yda1027 · March 20, 2008, 7:06am

Today, i only have one strip left, but I don’t use it, i will JUST USE IT when I don’t feel well, as in, really really don’t feel well.
I can’t afford to buy one now until the end of the month… Whew… what a hard life, it’s really hard to be poor and living in a poor country with this kind of illness… I want to change our life but how??? I want to work abroad to earn a higher salary, but before I could work there I need to pay a placement fee… whew… and I am talking about $2,800!!! I need to pay that amount to apply for housekeeping job either in Canada and U.S, and I also heared that healthcare benefits in those country is great and which I could be earning $1300 per month, That will be a big help for me and my family), Presently, I am only earning $200 per month, my husband $500, (My moms medicines and expenses: $95, I am supporting my mom since I am her only child, we don’t have insurance here too, my father passed away 11 years ago, my daughter’s allowance for a month $25, it’s a good thing she’s still in high school and studying in a public school, my medicines $10 - i am taking generic one, that’s why its cheap, my strips 25pcs: $28, my mother in law’s meds and expenses $175, household bills $125 and food $200 , and the rest miscellaneous - this is our monthly expenses, there are time that we have to borrow from friends especially when unavoidable things occur), all of our earnings will go to expenses, bills and medicines, there’s nothing left to save… I really don’t know where to find help!

I’ve never returned to my ENDO since November 2007 because we can’t afford it, my last laboratory check up($25) was December (I wasn’t able to show it to my endo because everytime I visit her I have to pay $12, plus fare to and from her clinic, supposedly I have laboratory check up again this month, but can’t squeeze it in the budget.

All I know is that I’ve been and I am a good person, i’ve never stepped on someone, I don’t know why I am reaping all these… all I wanted is a simple life, peaceful, happy and contented… we can buy things that we need and send my daughter in school and be out of debts!!!

Sometimes I really want to cry but I can’t!!! why? it will make my BG high. I can’t be angry… same thing will happen…