I have been very good at following m y program, but I think I hit a speed bump and somehow got sidetracked in the last two weeks. Maybe it’s the holidays, (poor excuse) maybe it’s the emotional baggage of the season (my parents have both passed within the last four years and this is tough for me),
maybe I am just plain tired of the regime. I don’t know. Yesterday, I did have a tuna sandwich, the only healthy thing I ate all day, and it made me sicker than I can tell. I’ll never eat tuna again. I don’t need a kick in the pants, I need a comforting shoulder that tells me I can get back on track, I can manage to maintain and keep this up for another 30 years. The stress of getting my oldest son healthy and back on track 1300 miles away is killing me, the stress of getting him home for Christmas is still looming over my head. I don’t know how to deal with this stress…it doesn’t go away…it’s always there. I trust that God won’t give me more than I can handle, but all of this put together
Stress, constant pain, diabetes, losses, money, loneliness is killing me. How do I deal with it all?
Life goes on and so will I. But first, I have to get back on track with the most important health issue I have this moment … the big “D”.
Thanks for letting me cry on your shoulder.