I’m starting on a pump (Paradigm 715) on Monday morning, and I am in a huge panic. I’ve been a diabetic for 14 years. I’ve never learnt to carb count, but have taught myself to guesstimate, and am very good at knowing what to inject depending on what I eat.
I saw a dietitian yesterday to learn how to carb count, and I don;t think I can do this. I can’t walk around with a scale. She says I can’t eat any of the foods I usually eat, can’t cook any of the meals I do. I can’t switch from the freedom I had on MDI, of eating what I wanted and adjusting my insulin dose (Humalog), to now not being able to eat anything.
I ordered ‘Pumping Insulin’, which also arrived yesterday. I’ve started reading, but every page just makes me panic more and more. I don;t even know how to start. I see the doc for 3 hours, and then that is it. All those settings, doses, adjustments, measures. I just don’t think I can do this. To be honest all I want to do is curl up in a ball and sob.
This is after I have been fighting to get onto a pump for 3 years.
I’m sorry for bitching, but maybe someone here has been through similar emotions and has coped? Any advice would be appreciated.