Warning: If reading about sagging female body parts offends you, do not read this post…just need to vent.
Since my dx in April, I’ve lost about 40 pounds and an additional 20 prior to dx. I am well aware of the benefits (not to mention I look a lot better in my new clothes). The downside is that I don’t look better with my clothes off. When I was fat, I was fat with or without clothes. Now, I look so different with clothes than without clothes it continues to disorientate me. Flat sagging breasts…without a bra (never a serious consideration) they would hang out the bottom of my shirt. I know this visual will make some of you cringe, but I am hoping it will make most laugh…because if it wasn’t my body that I’m looking at in the mirror, I would find it hilarious (think about the cartoons of the old lady with breasts down to her knees). When I was fat it didn’t bother me to wear a swimming suit to the pool or lake…now I am very aware of the loose, sagging flabby skin on my legs…I hate it.
OK…I know…in the larger scheme of things these thoughts might seem a bit frivolous. As I said I am well aware of the benefits… thin (i.e. healthy) is better than fat and I am happy that I lost the weight. As a matter of fact, we have made so many changes in our life-style since my dx my whole family has benefited… I just didn’t count on the weight loss making me so self-conscious.
Well…this was my first blog post and I hope it didn’t turn too many people off. My apologies to all that may have been offended…although, I am sure many can relate.