Hi Cobi
I am so glad you came to us to cry. You are home and with family and we understand. I am afraid your daughrter will always be the kid with diabetes. But you all will have a relationship like a lot of other kids won’t have with their Moms. I know she is little and she is rerstricted and you love her all the more fpr the things you want to change. I wish you could protect her from this too. I wanted to protect mine too. Both of my two oldest are type 1’s too. But they weren’ little when they started. . I have a little 7 year old soon to be 8 who is prediabetic. He wants to learn all of it now so i let him shoot me when they are here visiting. I also saved an empty insulin vial and used old syringes to refill it with water. He practices drawing up the water into a syringe and counting the units marked. And we are working on figuring out the amount of (play) insulin to draw up for different carbs and readings. This is too hard for your little one right now. But what i am saying Cobi is that you do what you can do for any given time. Mine is very allergic also to various dyes and things, so we send a special cookie or something he can drink whenever we are in parties and things like you described.
I am sorry for these times, but there are no apologies needed here when you cry or rant or anything else. I know these times hurt and they are so hard to get through. At any time you can come here. we will put our arms around you and give you all the hugs you need. So many times you just need to cry and get it all out. Things hurt too much and it seems like too much to go through. I am with you Cobi. And it is fine to be the one needing too. We all need. Everything just gets to be too much. And crying is a good way to release some of that pent up anguish. I am here Cobi. All of us are. And we will keep on being here for you. I am sending warm loving hugs right now.
This is my wish too. Why not me instead of my son. But, unfortunately it just happened this way. God or no one else made our children have this. It just happened.
Don’t be so hard on yourself. Your feelings are normal. You have found a wonderful forum and there are amazing people on this forum.