I had depression LONG before I developed diabetes. I had my first major depression when I was in the 5th grade, but didn’t develop diabetes until I was 43, and not diagnosed until I was 45. I’m sure the undiagnosed diabetes made the depression worse, though.
I DON’T think everyone has depression though. Most people have their blue days, but they pull out of it rapidly. Major depression, on the other hand lasts months to years, and makes it hard to even get out of bed. In my case, if I’m not on an antidepressant, I think of suicide 24/7. NO relief, and it’s acutely painful. It has nothing to do with real life, because while I’m not rich, I DO have everything I need, and friends, and family, and there’s no REASON to get suicidally depressed. Of course, bad luck events make it a lot worse, but the tendency is there, no matter what.
I agree with you that acceptance of diabetes (or any chronic disease) is an important step in relieving depression. I’m still struggling with that after 20 years. And it’s important to accept yourself as a good, lovable and worthwhile person – not let those inner voices tell you you’re crap. And also not accept blame for things you really had no control over. (I’m half talking to myself here, because these are things I struggle with).
I applaud you for going to counseling, and I hope you keep up the good work. It takes time, and for every step forward, there is a half step back, but I truly think it’s worth it. I’ve been going for about 3 years now, and have an excellent therapist, and also attend a women’s group – they all help, but I still struggle.
Keep up the good work, and feel free to talk as much as you want here – people care!
Natalie ._c-