I just want to inform you that this is MY body… not YOURS!
I dont appreciate you trying to kill me when I’m not looking you spineless coward!
I have news for you…I have a TEAM of doctors, nurses, dieticians, and loved ones who will do ANYTHING to supoort me.
I guess you thought you had one over on me the other day… a dangerous high…18.9 seriously! You will have to do better than that to put me on my butt! I had YOU down for the count with my secret weapon… the eliptical machine!! hahahahaha 1 hour and you were cowering at 4.7 !!! And I bet you thought it was pretty funny… beings as I live out of town and cant drive when you attack me like that… I showed you didnt I? One phone call to my sweetheart and he was at my door to pick me up so I could go to the gym and make you look like the pitiful disease that you are!
I even quit smoking on xmas eve… just so you couldn’t come in through the back door and get the jump on me!
Yup… I am stronger than you
smarter than you
more powerful than you will ever be!
In fact… compared to you… I am a ninja!!!
howdoyoulikemenow??? bahahahahahahahahahaha
I… LOVE… THIS…
I just heard diabetes run out the door crying!
Thumbs up karebear!
THERE YOU GO!!! What I have thought for years now! SHOW D HOW STRONG YOU ARE!!!
Way to go, karebear!
SWEET !
this just made my day!!!
That’s right!!
Go tell it where to go!!! ■■■■ off is my fav word when it wants to act all hissy. Great post 
Hurrah for you Karebeat! I give you 100 good marks on the meter scale.
Love it.
Hi Danny!
I yell at my organs an body parts too but I was getting funny looks from family members and strangers on the street. I didnt want to risk getting chased by two big neandrathals with a straight jacket, so I figure this would be a safe place to do it!!! lol
PS I am also being treated for depression so the chances of this happeneing… are pretty real!!! LOL
Awesome. Simply awesome.
Love your blog. thanks for making me smile.
Karebear1966,
I too am being treated for depression. recently I took myself off of them because of some serious side effects like blackouts and suicidal thoughts/feelings.
That was about 4 days ago. Since then, those side effects are reversing themselves rapidly, but the depression is returning.
I see you are a type 2. Are you on meds or insulin yet?
I was diagnosed about 10 months before you were. But, for some reason, my endo says I am not insulin resistant?
Anyway, Welcome to the club.
You have a great sense of humor and a wonderful description of your feelings on your blog. Nice job!
Hi Zolar!
Yes depression, like diabetes can be tricky to manage and find the right meds. I was only on wellbutrin for most of my adult life… and as my diabetes got worse… the meds didnt seem to work as wel…(I didnt know I was diabetic)
Once I was diagnosed… my GP sent me to anothr GP who specializes in depression patients. After going through my history he diagnosed me with type 2 bipolar.(google it) I had no idea there were 2 types so when he first said the words bipolar to me I wanted to smack him! I have met a few people with bipolar and they are certainly not functional most of the time and have alot of troubles in their lives that I could not relate to. But when he explained about the 2 types… I thought I would give him a shot at treating me to see if I would feel better.
He upped my welbutrin to 300mg and added 5mg of ritalin and 100mg of lamactacil(not sure if I spelled it right)
Needless to say… all these meds take a few months to get into your body and start working properly.And you must do YOUR due diligence on getting better also. Eating properly,excersizing everyday and excersizing your mind by reading etc.I found that some foods are also triggers…in a bad way…like sugars and some food colorings can make your brain feel unwell. Bottom line is… find a good doctor and give the meds a chance… maybe you were on the wrong ones… it takes some experimentation just like the diabetes.
I am glad you enjoyed my blog… that is just one of the things I do to cope…I do not bottle things up and always use humor and positive thinking to help me help myself. If I didnt do the excersize and eating properly,and reading, and meditiation,and my hobbies… I likely wouldnt be here.
I am a professional coach in the personal development field. If you care to explore let me know!
PS… Zolar… taking yourself off your meds can be very dangerous!!! Please see a doctor to discuss it!
Thanks for the support and information. Here’s my firm belief:
That which does not kill me makes me stronger.
Doc put me on Citalopram at near seizure dosages then added Wellbutrin.
At first, the Citalopram was working then I acquired an immunity to some of it. Doc upped the dosage 2 times to nearly the max, then added wellbutrin.
A few days ago, I was nearly suicidal. For months, I had blackouts and errors in judgment. Shakes, dizziness, a lot of weird symptoms. And it exacerbated me ED something awful. To the point that I couldn’t do ANYTHING at all. Not even ED meds would work. My wife was NOT happy in that department.
Being on those meds cost me a very valuable relationship with a close friend. They will accept me back as a friend IF I am off meds totally, have a notarized statement saying so, and obtain a psych eval from a forensic psychiatrist.
That initself should tell you just how bad the meds were.
Since I took myself off them, I have withdrawal symptoms something bad. But they lessen each day. As those symptoms subside the depression increases. Like a pendulum.
I can control the problems with great mental fortitude applied. But it wears me down.
I will be going on Zoloft soon.
Controlling blood sugars is nearly impossible for me in the winter time. I have insulin, but keep having to increase the dosage for a given regular meal. Went from 5 units now to 8 then 10 and will need 15 soon.
I looked up that type 2 bipolar. OMG it sounds exactly like the symptoms I am having. I will have my p-doctor investigate this. I do have an endo. She gave me several kinds of insulin to try. I have 7 kinds in all.
What is a professional coach in the personal development field?
Zolar.I understand your frustration with the meds… but I know for certain that stopping wellbutrin abruptly can cause much damage to your body…and your brain… I BEG you please see your DR. about this Immediately!!! I totaly understand you not wanting to take meds that make you feel bad… but going off them is a science and must be done properly.
It is not unusual for ED to present itself while on antidepressants… I am not sure why…I am not a doctor but I know many men with the same issue.
Yes… type 2 bipolar is unique in itself…and it often goes untreated as when the type 2"s are in their manic phase… the are VERY functional and usually in very high positions in major corporations because they can get many projects done all at once. We dont need much sleep during this phase and are usually the “workaholics” of the bunch. That is the main reason why most who have this type dont medicate…the meds we take are ones that treat the depression… or “lows” and a stabilizer which actually prevents me from doing my superwoman phase… it levels me out to a “normal” or “level” way of doing things.
Actually many famous actors ans actresses have this disorder and working in this field is helpful as they work for many months on set and then are able to take time off when they need to.
So in a nutshell my meds… lower my “highs” and raises my “lows” to keep me more level.
As for the coaching…
A professional coach is a person who is there to support you in getting “unstuck” so to speak. There are coaches for singers, athletes, actors, etc… so I am the coach for the regular joe…but same principal.
I do not tell you what to do… I merely assist you in digging through your “stuff” in a guided, supportive way.
I steer you towards finding answers, because if YOU come up with the solution yourself you are more likely motivated to do what needs to be done rather than someone just telling you what to do.
Bottom line is this…
All of our results in our lives… good and bad, imagined or real are based on our beliefs,attitudes and behaviors.
Many reasons why people do not get the desired results they want in their lives is because they do not realize that you MUST change all 3 to change your result.
I will give you an example from my own experience:
I was about 12 yrs old. I was participating in a horse show. I grew up on the back of a horse so many things related to horses… I was a natural at it.
I also had a beautiful horse, who showed very well based on her looks alone. So combine that with my talent…and well… lets just say I had many ribbons to put on my wall.
So… this one particular event… it was on a weekend… and it had rained all the week before. Many people that entered that show had worked very hard to groom and practice their riding skills for weeks before.
I did not.
I did not see the reasoning behind it. It had not stopped raining foe the show and all that grooming would be wasted time in my mind…as the horses would just be muddy by the time they went into the ring.
Long story short… I won… again… and my mother was furious with me because she KNEW how hard the others worked at this and I just waltz right in an win the whole thing.
She had said to me after the show that I didn’t DESERVE to win. And that I should be ASHAMED of myself for winning.
At the time… I brushed it off because my mom and I didnt get along anywayand at 12… parents are stupid!!! lol
Little did I know that that would haunt me the rest of my life.
I was a natural at many things and when I got to the point of being successful… I would unconsciously sabatoge my success.
My belief was… If I dont work hard at something… I don’t DESERVE to be successful.
My attitude was…feeling sorry for myself because I could never quite make it to the top… always came close but never #1
My behavior was…when I get to the point where everything was going well… I would unconsciously do something stupid to ruien it.
So…is it something i still struggle with? yes of course! What is different now… is that I dont “sit in my crap” as long as I used to. I have the tools to help myself work through it…and am able to help others as well.
I also am certified in NLP which is short for Neuro Linguistic Phychology (formerly Programming)
(google it)
Once I get a handle on the big “D” I will be taking a certification course in clinical hypnotherapy.
My intentions are to help others with depression and pain management, weightloss,addictions… now maybe diabetes as well.
I hope that makes sense???!!!
Hey karebear! I didn’t realize, that you had been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder! Not to be talking about it necessarily, but I have been diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder for 7 years. It was a horrible ride before I finally got a decent treatment plan, unfortunatley its about time to update my meds again, but its ok I see my doc for that next week. I have literally been on almost every antidepressant and antipsychotic med out there. And then been in circles where they switch some meds around with other ones and ohhhhh how long it went on.
But to the others who are following this and are talking about it and have the disorder – Please don’t feel discouraged, it is difficult and hard to establish the “correct” treatment for that, I guess just like diabetes. I have had years of therapy and medication management, sexual issues are common, and that doesn’t help the depression. But you just have to keep working to find the right treatment. I know A LOT about Bipolar disorder, which makes me feel a little more like I fit in here, because I didn’t expect to find people on here with that, I wasn’t looking for that, I just stumbled upon it. If anyone reading this wants to talk or support on that matter, you can send me a message, I am always happy to help with that. You guys have been more than helpful with my diabetes subject.
Take care to all~~
Helen