I know I have diabetes, I know how serious it is if I don't take care of it. So why do I still not care, I just can't seem to take care of my health. I will do good for a week or two, then slowly just stop checking my sugar levels and stop taking my injections all together. When people ask me why, I don't know what to say.. I normally just say it's because i'm lazy.. I know it's not that I just think it's easier to pretend nothing is wrong then to face changes.
How do I get out of this slump, I know i'm not happy but maybe if I could accept the fact things have changed it might be easier to deal with everything..
TooSweet, I think that you and I need to get together and come up with a magic elixr or something that will fix this problem because we all have it at one time or another and to some varying degree. If we could find that we could both retire and live very comfortably.
Have you considered some kind of counciling? There was a post a couple of days ago that said they had tied depression and diabetes. Might explain why some many of us struggle with this problem. Counciling might help.
Second idea is to find yourself a diabetes buddy/friend or some other support group that can help you start on the road to better care and keep you there. In the groups list at the top of each page there is a list of groups, some of them by state/city, where you can find a local support network of people that will understand what you are dealing with.
There are many that say “just do it.” Those that say that have no idea what you are going through in your life.
The fact that you do it for a week or two says that you can do this. We just need to find a way to help you.
You obviously haven't given up totally because you posted here. I'm glad you stepped forward and shared your concerns. Keep coming back.
When I was a kid I got to be an expert at filling in first urine test logs, and later bg test logs, with entirely fictional numbers.
Now that I'm a middle-aged adult... I wouldn't imagine leaving the house without my bg meter. That doesn't mean that I'm any better at paper record keeping! But I check with my bg all the time and even download it to the computer every so often.
Haha...this magic elixir...wouldn't be a cure, would it? : p
Wow, thanks everyone for commenting.
I wish there was a magic elixir to cure diabetes because it's such a big inconvenience. I've thought about taking counseling but I'm not normally one to
talk... I'm rather shy and find the whole thing kind of uncomfortable and awkward.
I went to hospital a month or so ago for not looking after my diabetes I thought that would be enough to shock me into shape.. but unfortunately not.
I think it's hard for me to look after myself because, I haven't really got any ambitions in life i'm in year eleven and everything is just becoming more and more overwhelming. I have no idea what I want to do when I leave school, and I don't really like anything. I don't have any hobbies or skills.
I've felt like this my whole life.. but i've been stuck in this slump since I was diagnosed with diabetes, a lot happened at that time, my nan passed away and my boyfriend I had been going out with for a year broke up with me because I was to depressing to be around..
I just wish I could go to some deserted island and stay there with no worries until I could get everything under control everything just seems to pile up.
I know that I could be doing more to try and make myself happy and I know I have a good life.. I have friends and I never get bullied, but I just feel like there is no reason to get out of bed in the morning I haven't gone to school for the last three days I don't like being around people when I feel like this.. I don't want to be seen as the depressed kid I never let people see me sad because I don't want to bring them down.
Maybe I should just force myself to do some counseling it might help, I just really don't feel comfortable doing it.. all I know is I shouldn't be feeling this way because there are people way worse off then me.
Sorry for not being very co-operative I'm not a very positive thinker.
Reality check: no deserted island for you lady! You have to face this darn disease every day, in and out. How long have you had it for? I was diagnosed a little less than 1 1/2 years ago. It took me about 10 months to start really taking care of myself. I was so angry and sad, and apathetic. Do you know what REALLy helped? Counseling! Oh my Lord, it was such a relief to be able to get all of my sadness and anger and resentment out, in a safe and non judgemental environment. Seriously, consider it. Also, ask yourself what you are doing in this life. It sounds like you are fairly young, so it's a little too early to give up on hopes and dreams. Maybe if you can find something worth living for, then you will in turn believe that your health is worth the effort to stay alive.
Thanks, yeah i've had it for about 8 months now. I'm really starting to consider counseling I just wanted to know if anyone else thought it would help. I'm just scared it wont help.. then what would I do.
Never be scared that something won’t help. Be scared that you never tried, because even if it doesn’t work, you still learned something new. 
I really think counseling will help you! Sometimes I wish I had gone a few times myself. Don't be scared that it won't help--at worst, you'll still be right where you are now.
I was the opposite of you. When I was diagnosed, I just kept plugging along as if it was no big deal--of course, my mom caught my diagnosis before I ended up bad enough to go to the hospital, but this was not good for me mentally. I didn't understand the seriousness of this disease and really didn't allow it to sink in until just a few months ago.
What helps me is getting some kind of new d-technology. I started pumping over a month ago now and I'm much more committed to keeping things where they need to be--even if it's just so I can play with my new "toy". If you can swing it, get a new glucose meter or something. Maybe one that still works with your current prescription for test strips.
Counseling, seriously, try it!
I did after 8 years from diagnosis and being constantly too sweet... that was actually my go to answer: "I'm diabetic cause I'm so sweet" but inside I didn't like myself and I was diabetic because i was "bad" and I deserved it.
The sooner you address those thoughts that are bringing you down the sooner you'll start turning them around and trying a lil more to care. Once you care just a little more and start putting a renewed effort to get your BG in range the more positive you feel. And believe me having high sugars directly correlates with your "depressive" feelings. Bringing them down will make you feel more energetic, more "in control" of your life and more positive about yourself.
Just one other advice, don't settle for counseling with just anyone, if you do not click with the therapist you won't open up. If you get a therapists that knows nothing about chronic illnesses he/she won't get you and you will resent him/her. If the first person that you talk to is not your cup of tea, move on, there are plenty of trained professionals to help, find one that you feel is listening to you.
I see myself in your blog. I have thought about getting hypnotherapy to see if it could help me "care" and encourage me to eat right. Have had diabetes 19 years and still don't really care. Am in counseling. Have in past too but have been regularly getting counseling for six months.