Oh damn, Karen. People are always talking about how expensive db is, money-wise. Well, I tell you, the emotional cost in fear and dread exceed anything I’ve ever spent…
It seems like the one thing that tempered my fear was my big retiopathy episode, 6 years ago. Now I sort of figure that I can get through anything. What happens, happens.
I’m 56, and I think the aging process really does a number on you too. To get “normal people” stuff like arthritis and osteoporosis makes mw wanna scream “it’s not fair”. Also, I’m reaching the age where my friends are starting to get stuff like cancer, etc
And, my mother died in Feb, which really makes me feel like I’m stepping up to the plate.
Bottom line is, yes, I definitely think the older you get, the more preoccupied you are with health issues. And I can’t think of any solutions to ease this other than working closely with a doc so that things can be caught early.
BTW, how is your depression? When my depression was untreated, I freally obsessed on symptoms a lot more than I do now.
Sister, I wish you better days ahead. Take care.