My long-time companion wants to take me out for dinner tonight to one of my favourite restaurants. We haven't had an evening like that together in quite awhile. In fact, we've hardly seen each other for the last few weeks.
I've accepted the invitation, but I have no idea what to do about dinner. Many times in the last couple of weeks, I've made a meal and then decided that I couldn't eat it because my BG was too high. My BG elevates after I eat and frequently stays there for hours. Exercise makes it worse. It's very frustrating and demoralizing, too, especially if I was feeling hungry and actually interested in eating the meal I'd prepared.
This morning, when I got up, my BG was 5.9 mmol/L. I ate an ounce of cheese, which is my way of trying to stave off the Dawn Phenomenon. An hour and a bit later, my BG before breakfast was 6.1 mmol/L. I ate two ounces of sliced roast beef and half a cup of green beans; total carbs: about 3g. Two hours later, my BG was 8.2 mmol/L.
I'm starting to think that I shouldn't eat at all if my BG is 6.1 or higher because it will inevitably be about 8.0 two hours later. The problem is that my BG is rarely less than 6.0 for very long. But when it is, and I eat, it doesn't rise as much. For example, on Wednesday, I had two boiled eggs and a tablespoon of SF peanut butter for breakfast when my BG had been 5.1. Two hours later, it was at 6.6. That's still a big rise, but not dangerously high.
If I have a drink before dinner--a martini, or a glass of scotch--that may make a difference, but it's hard to know how much. I notice that if I have 2 ounces of scotch before going to sleep, it helps lower my BG. Last night, I had a meeting and so ended up having dinner quite late. At 9:30 p.m., my BG was 6.2. I ate an omlette with sauteed peppers and cheddar cheese. At 11:30, my BG was 8.1. At 12:30, an hour before I was going to sleep, My BG was 8.3 I drank 2 ounces of scotch. At 1:30 a.m, my BG was 7.3. Not fabulous, but better. I didn't wake up during the night, so I don't know if it went up or down before I woke up this morning. I suspect it just slowly declined.
If I take my BG before dinner tonight, there's a strong possibility that I'll find I shouldn't eat anything. We're going to a Greek restaurant. I can eat roast lamb. I'll ask for a lettuce salad (Im allertic to uncooked peppers and tomatoes, so no Greek salad for me) with an oil and vinegar dressing, if they have it. But there's no guarantee that eating so few carbs will make a positive difference to my BG.
Sorry to sound like I'm over-processing everything! My partner is a bit impatient with all of this and takes the view that I should just do what I can and not worry about the outcome too much. Have dessert a couple of times a week, eat a sandwich now and then. I don't think that's right for me, though. So I'm looking for ways to make decisions smoothly and hope that will help.