First of all, please don't judge...
So lately I've been obsessing about my weight. A few weeks ago I cut out junk food and have been eating a mostly all natural diet of fresh fruits, veggies, lean proteins, nuts, etc. When I did that, I dropped 3 pounds in a couple weeks. I enjoyed that I was losing weight and kept eating my healthy diet. Over the weekend, my fiance and I ate out and I already made up my mind that I was getting an old favorite that I hadn't had in such a long time, which of course, was unhealthy and calorie loaded. Of course my blood sugar didn't like that since it was getting used to my new diet, but I didn't do anything to correct it Saturday night before bed thinking that maybe I won't gain the weight from that meal. Then on Sunday, I got bored at home while my fiance was working and ate a bunch of M&M's and sugar cookies I was baking for a potluck. I felt terrible that I caved and didn't take any insulin for it. I ate a few more snacks, no insulin and we ordered pizza for dinner and I took only half the insulin for that. I didn't check before bed, but I had to be really high. The next morning, I was only 251. So I thought, well, maybe I wasn't as high as I thought.
So yesterday during the day, I had an apple for breakfast and a little lunch knowing that I ate so much the day before. My blood sugar ended up dropping right before I left work, probably from taking a little too much for lunch. So, I ate one of my cookies to correct it. As soon as I got to my car, I started crying and ate 3 more cookies, no insulin, got home and ate half a bag of Doritos, no insulin. Before I went to bed, my meter said HI, which I think means my blood sugar was over 500. I didn't care, I want to lose weight, I'm mad at myself for eating what I did and being not strong. Checked my blood sugar this morning, 213. Didn't eat, didn't correct, checked 2 hours later 156.
Now, before you say that maybe my basal rate is too high at night, anytime I eat normally, go to bed high and even correct, I'll wake up on the high side. Or if it's normal when I go to bed, it's usually higher when I wake up. And this has happened before. Don't take insulin at night for food and wake up with way lower levels. How does that happen??
PS.. sorry for the long post..